Eddie's journal, February 5th, 2010 9.47pm

847 points.


not easy to squeeze out of all the crappy activities you all had last year.


i had to squeeze and cheat my way out so that you all can get FCS silver.



but then i look at my campfire committee now its horrible.


ventures, scouts and guides all not communicating with each other.


why has it become like this?


is it because i try to appease everyone too much?

is it really that hard to talk with the ventures?

why is it i get more anxious and worried than my vice chairman?

what the hell are they doing?

everyone needs to start to wake up.

starting with me.


GRRRRR ENOUGH

anyone not productive im going to cut you off my campfire committee.

im not going to make people who had put in effort disappointed again.

im not going to take this bullshit anymore.


the axe is going to fall and if you are on the chopping block.

boo-fucking-hoo and too-fucking-bad.




mistake on my part does not mean that my committee aint working.


however mistake on my committee's part means i aint doing my job.


and i damn well will kick some slackers shebs now.

Eddie's journal, February 3rd, 2010 12.03pm

yesterday received Air Force Recruitment Centre's letter.



i failed my Pilot COMPASS test.

however i am asked to go take WSO FTR COMPASS tomorrow.


so i guess its still ok i think.


still will get to fly, abet not in control of the plane.
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campfire committee.

more and more tired of their whining and small little insecurities.


already told them i want 100% committed people. yet i find people giving me excuses that they have tuition during campfire meeting.

WHEN the campfire meeting date is given 1 week in advance.

honestly feel like telling them "not interested then just leave my committee la, dont waste all of our time"


as for my vice-chairman, both deserved to get hammered.

small little things cant decide. never ask for assistance or clarification also.

just anyhow whack.

now it seems as if we will no be having a meeting to let me vet through their proposals.

so be it then, if you all screw up remember you guys are the one that dont want to work with me.

im already sick and tired of pleasing everyone. if you all cant decide i'll decide for you all.

i dont care if i have to step on peoples pride or break their puny brittle hearts, as long as the job gets done i dont really give a damn.
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once again we have reached this place.

the lies of trust have all burned away with the trials of fire.


you have once again started to betray me, plotting against me behind my back, whispering lies about me.


and you wonder why i dont completely trust you.

you of all people who i defended, you of all people who i give a benefit of the doubt.

and now you about face and threaten my place in the kingdom.


you are wrong.


2 can play this game. it could be a life or death ending.


but since i dont have the luxury of time to play with you, i'll fold.


YOU WANT THE CONN???

you have the conn.

take it, and then drown with it.


i fold, but it does not mean i'll make life easier for you.