Eddie's Journal, 23 March 2009, 10.19 PM

Verd ori'shya beskar'gam
-warrior is more than armour

got to hand it to the mandalorians.they really have a nice proverbs and all that.nice way of life too. if possible i would want to live like them.

"Mandalorians don't make threats. We make promises."
―Canderous Ordo


i wont ask for reasons why you want me to stay.instead i'll ask for reasons you want me to leave.


you ask why i im on a hiatus now?

simple.

i dont want to be there when it all goes down. when all that shit hits that collective fan that has been inching its way closer and closer.


we're just rubbing shoulders now. how long before we'll be knocking heads?

how long before I'm fighting you?


you see time is not on my side. neither is it on yours or on theirs.

the time period that you can influence and teach them the right thing short. the window of opportunity is extremely small.


once its over its over. there not alot of things you can do to get them back on the right track again.


bear in mind this is a scout unit. not ventures. not rovers. if ur looking for that then MJR RFS is not the place.


i think i'll stop here for today.

Eddie's Journal. 19 March 2009, 9.55am

what more do i have to say?


im tired if it. pissed and tired.

solution.simple.not bothering anymore.

why for i bother so much.makes me pissed all the more.


drawing the lines very clearly now.

Eddie's Journal, 15th March 2009 11.20pm

its the end. no more pain. no more agony.no more nice-guy.


ive put a stop it it. no more regular outings with my boys. sick of people using me as an excuse to everything.


NO FREAKING MORE.

respect. is it really that hard to give?

i know sometimes its really hard on my friends just to be around me.



what happened over job week to my ventures i was partly at fault.mostly actually.

streaming a long string combo of vulgar insults. not a good thing.

thing to change. language. important.

scouts picked all the insults. threw at ventures. all from me.


good things never learn. pick up all bad points.


NO! NO! NO! no forgiveness. no compromise. not even in the face of annihilation.


so stupid. should have seen this coming.


too easy. had been too easy controlling them .


no more.


simply no more.

Eddie's Journal, 12th March 2009,

sick.

went to see a doctor. says its common flu.

been having fever on and off for the past 2 days.

felt like crap

FYPJ team mates works hard. very hard. too hard.

whereas ive slacked.


DMD is very worrisome. worries over every small detail. hard to communicate to her.

DET partner works too hard. i think i feel this way because i slack too much. memo to self must work harder.

now that im sick. nowhere to go. going to sleep again.

heres to the new to-be-formed PLC of 2009

dear new PLC for Manjusri Red fox Scouts,


i think its with great honor that we have you all on board as the new Patrol Leader Council. From now on you all will lead the red Fox Scouts troop to new and greater heights.

Bear this in mind, all eyes will be upon you.

Uniform groups and other organizations in a perfect world, rank, friendship and kinship can co-exist together.

Unfortunately the world we live is a crazy, mad world, and its far far far from perfect.

In reality, in any organization theres only you, me, the rank and the job. Friendship and kinship will have to take a backseat. So right off the bat you have an up-hill battle, a battle to gain the trust and respect of the people who just a few moments ago were your friends, your peers, your buddy. Emerge victorious from this battle and you will have the trust and confidence of your men.

There will be though decisions to make, though calls to be made under fire. Make sure you have the steel within gentlemen, its a hard heart that kills. If at the heat of the moment you hesitate and falter, your men will lose confidence in you. Do what is right, learn to trust your instincts, do not think for a moment that your new status as PLC members will put you above the responsibilities of looking out for wach other. Your men will be looking upon you to keep them safe and away from dangers be it in scouting or in life. Remember this always:Never put yourself in a position where you can take from your men.

From the day you were sworn in as a scout, you have promised to do your best, and when you all as a whole do your best, no odds are too great for Red Fox Scouts.

As your Assistant Scout Leader, i do hope to see you new PLC take us red Fox Scouts to an all new frontier.



Regards,
Ho Fu Lin Eddie
ASL
Red Fox Scouts Group