i am a heart man....

denial is not a river in Egypt....its a frigging sea...



went out just now...


supposed to go for movie outing ended up in the wrong place...



not blaming or fussing over that but learned alot today....




sat down ate then walk around looking for open movie theaters but to no avail...so we walked from one place to the other talking and joking, eating and drinking....



talked about the past funny things that happened to us to the unit to everything...


someone commented that i was humorous, that i looked to strict and black-faced...



well im a black-faced person...i dont usually find job in mundane stuff or stuff that people find joy in....i find joy in things i have never done before or things that are unusual....


i like to poke fun at normal stuff, i like to make fun at the cost of others, i like to poke fun at ourselves, i like to poke fun at me....well mostly other people...


i like to do dumb stuff sometimes....just for the sake of fun....dumb stuff sometimes make life look brighter from my end...


im not a person who was shown love, kindness and appreciation alot...hence i tend to be cold and uncaring, but i would like to think i care and concern in my own special and harsh way....


i am a scout, i am crazy and obtuse

i am a scout, i like poking fun at others

i am a scout, i do things that others wont do or others dont like to do


i am Eddie, im emo, lonely,unconcerned, uncaring and unhappy... i am a slob

i am Eddie, i sometimes bite off more than i can chew,i dont usually put my heart into everything

i am Eddie, i sometimes act like an idiot, i sometimes act like an asshole, i sometimes piss people off


i am me, i dont believe in hope, i dont believe in frens or enemies, i only believe in 'trust'

i am me, i always look for the challange, i hold on and will never let go if theres still a single breath left in me

i am a slob...

i am not hopeful i am not optimistic...

i am wort off than the average guy you see on the road...

i am stupid, dumb, retarded and stubborn at times...

i am not a good person...

i am not sure, i am not steady, i can crumble easily...

but this i am sure:

i am a heart-man...


i trust in the people i call my friends, i trust in the people who are my family, i trust in my 'bothers' and 'sisters'....


i take them apart when they fight, i put them back together after a quarrel, i hold them dear to my heart...


and so i am a heart-man...