Wednesday, 26 August 2009
Thursday, 13 August 2009
no rest... not yet... not now anyway...
FYP period extended...
cos lecturers not happy with my work output... says not up to year 3 standard...
very very displeased with the decision lor... felt its unfair...
BUT
what to do?
suck it up and then fuck off lo...
what to do?
ive been studying since last year... no real holiday breaks in between....
from taking modules to SP4 then to FYPJ then IHIAP
span 1 whole year le...
tired... then thought that today was to be the the last day...
failed to see that too many things have been going nicely... and that murphy has came up behind me with my pants down and grabbed my balls...
actually had the intention to quarrel with lecturer jus now... but then too tired liao... i jus tell them i try so see how much more i can touch up... cos they say i have not fail yet... so jus do...
yes for now i jus do... i jus do as much as i can and then see how... cos i pia like fuck for the last 2 weeks liao... i chiong i pia... i drop everything and do finish a playable... then u say this not good that not good... sometimes hor... tell me abit earlier then i can change right...
anyways now is still no rest for the weary yet... 1 more week
then i will finally get my break... for 1 week
then back to doing another project for NHB again...
sometimes somethings in life we dont have to like it... we jus have to do it... and do as best as within our capacity can...
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Sunday, 9 August 2009
fool again
should have seen it coming...
utterly disappointed...
all i had to do was to keep my whole day free... my whole freaking day...
i dont want to talk to anyone now...
i dont want to understand...
cos there will be alot of "blah blah blah blah blah" and im dont want to hear that...
so what if its unfair if i dont listen to all ur excuse... cos excuses are like assholes... everyone has got one...
and im too disappointed to give a fuck so too bad...
well theres always next year...
but trust me i wont expect nuts anymore...
fuck all that bullshit...
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Friday, 7 August 2009
you never know its the biggest day of your life until you are rite in the middle of it, until you realize theres not enuf time,cos u wanna live foever
today is the day...
the last day...
the final hours slip away...
19 years of hardship, pain, joy and laughter...
they all fade away...
add another year to the sum...
and 20 it shall be...
yet at the cornerstone of my life...
all i ever feel is sadness...
for the people i had offended, sorry
for the people i had disappointed, sorry
for the people who expected alot out of me, sorry
yet for all the "sorry" i have...
i only have a small "thank you" for all the people who supported me and helped me...
im not a guy who has alot of self-confidence for many reason...
some even i dont know...
but today is the day...
its the day my life begins...
for all my life ive been jus me...
a smart mouth kid...
but today i become a man...
i become accountable...
i become accountable to people other than myself...
i become accountable to my friends...
i become accountable to my family....
i become accountable to you...
to my future...
to all the possibilities my life after 20 have to offer...
no matter what happens...
i'll be ready...
for anything, for everything...
to take on life...
to take on love...
to take on possibilities and responsibilities...
today i turn 20...
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today finally finished my FYP liao... albeit the game has no sound... im too tired and lazy to do it...
will have to rush my report over the weekend... jus feel like kicking back and give a wild shout of joy...
but jus tank 1 more week... after that endless supply of freedom...
till then i think i'll jus keep a low profile...
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