Eddie's journal, Janruary 31st, 2010 7.33pm

hey.

you would have started working your last shift at sakae by now.


when you breathlessly came up to me just now and tell me that it was your last day today. deep down inside im happy.


im happy because i wont see you again.


it sounds weird but true. im happy cos i wont see you at work anymore.


its true.


not that i dislike you but its the opposite.


im attracted to you.


however you're already attached, therefore i dont want to come in between that.


im not a very good person. in fact im not a good guy at all. there are parts of me that even i myself dont like.


hes a much better person that 10 of me put together.

so i should not, i will not express my feelings for you now.

its just not right.


i dont want to start anything that will mess up your life.


all i can say is "if only i could have met you earlier in my life"

if you're reading this then dont feel sad for me, dont pity me or anything.


just continue to be yourself, feel happy in fact because you are you.


as for me i'll wait. for a better chance for someone else?


which ever comes first.


good luck and best wishes to you.