Eddie's journal, December 12th, 2010 2.36pm 1436 hours

4 months since last post...

whats changed?

lots...

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where do i begin?

honestly i dont know...

when you constantly find things not going your way... and therefore you rage at nothing, everything and everyone... and then you see more things not going your way...

you are blind, blind to not see that you are the problem not others.

and then you ignore that problem and keep thinking that as long as you ignore it you'd be fine...

but honestly are you really fine? how long are you going to keep ignoring and finally accept that you are the idiot?

at times you go out of your way to piss people off and then try to convince them that you are not the problem when they can all see that you are the major problem around.

i was that blind fucker...

ignoring my actions and ignoring that im the problem had made me life so miserable...

in short ive fucked myself...

and its high time i shuld unfuck myself.

and so im going to apologize to everyone who had know that i was the problem.

i dont know if its too late to change or if the change would be effective... but if i dont help myself out of this hole im sure as hell screwed for the rest of my life...