Eddie's journal, July 15th, 2011 9.10pm 2110 hours, Friday.

lets see the last time i checked in was in April, so much has gone by.

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been promoted, and transferred. to ops team. no its not a very glamorous place but its police work nonetheless.

have experienced working with them for 2 mths. cant say i really like it nor can i really say i dislike it.

it just that i feel that as an SC(NSF) PO lots of odds are stacked against us. alot of jobs especially so in ops team is specifically for SC to do or specifically for regular officers to do.

and some regulars(NOT NAMING NAMES) draw lines very clearly. i guess its cos of the nature of work.

i cant really go into details cos that would embarrass people alot and cause alot of trouble for me.

suffice to say we SCs are also human beings treat us like one too. its not easy for us to work if you start doing this simple discrimination. its quite clear to us but it might be a routine thing for you that this has been ongoing.

you work 12 hr shift we SC also work 12 hr shift. yet some jobs SC can assist/take over regular yet regular can do vice versa for us SC. I'm not asking alot, I'm just asking that regulars treat us SCs abit better/nicer can? we are all stuck in the same boat so why not just make our lives easier? after all we are stuck to serve our 2 years.

one of the reasons why i prefer to work at MP NPC that at DHQ.

still I'm stuck with DHQ till i ORD. also due to a promise made too early. so here i am grumbling about it but still stuck with it. catching alot of hell in the process too.

but at the end of the day my mantra that i chant when i meet shit at ops team is always "I'm just here to serve my 2 years and then fuck off. so just say what you want. get this shit over with and I'm a freeman again."

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anyway new work place new friends, but same old me? yup i guess i haven changed 1 bit. but its a habit of mine already. i just cant stand indecisiveness fundamentally.

picture 7~8 persons meeting up. majority claims to be hungry but yet all would rather sit around and do nothing that start walking to any eatery nearby.

it like a fat person saying that they wanna slim down yet continue to eat 10 pie&chips everyday.

I'm like "come on! get a move on already!"

and they go like "no, im not going to move. im hungry but the foosball game looks nicer."

/facepalm

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I'm still thinking of signing on though. haven been accepted might be a blessing in disguise.

gives me more time to think through. is this really what i want? will i really take up part time studies after i sign on?

or will i really complete my degree if i choose study first?

haha plenty to think about for now.

food+deserts for thought then.