Eddie's Journal, 7th April 2009, 11.50am

something made me rewatch code geass R2 again.


still cried even when i watched it the second time.


lelouch centered all the hate to himself.


all the pain.suffering.anger.hate.


all upon himself. hes killed his own parents.his cousin who was his first love.

betrayed millions upon millions of people.

yet beneath all the vile things he did.he still tried to protect those around him.

kallen, suzaku, his brother Schneizel ,his sister Nunnally.

true to his word he created a world where his sister could live in happily.

he did it at the cost of his own life.

for all the things he'd done.people hated him for that.he made it so that all the blame would be placed on himself.

and then he plotted his own death. by having his best friend kill him.


for all the things he'd done.for all the sins he was to commit. he was alone.

he had no one to turn to. no one to confess his sadness about doing what hes done to.


cos no one would understand.


the only one who understood was C.C.


and she was his only console through out the whole series.

and at the end. almost everyone that hes hurt forgives him.

kallen did.so did Shirley.even his fake brother Rolo save Lelouch from being killed.


he lied to all those who would forgive him later after he dies.


he lied to the whole world and in the end they somehow forgave him.they reaped the fruits of his labor. his sacrifice.


living is a lie.we all have to put on our masks when we interact socially. we lie abt things.

mundane things.hurtful things.meaningless things.

things that we thought would make people feel better.

things that we thought would make the world better.

things that we thought that it would make our own current situation better.


for Lelouch.end justifies its means.



he sacrificed his own love. his own emotions.his own feelings. inorder to destroy the world and recreate it.


and at the end all he has is nothing. zero.his dark secret can never come to light.for no one would understand. no one could feel or be what hes been through.yet all would openly condemn him for his actions.


i'd like think that hes still alive in the end.