Eddie's journal, December 11th, 2009 12.55am

life is just like a game.
a fucking boring game.

no matter where you go, whatever shit you do.
the same thing happens.

like clockwork.
like a game.

different levels.
same enemies, same weapons, same scenario.
just different locale.
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i go to work.
wasnt late.
but got scolded for nothing by manager.

i didnt complain.

i serve customer food.
they claim didnt order.
got scolded by kitchen crew.

i didnt complain.

other svc key wrong table.
i serve to the wrong customer.
got fucked by them.

i didnt complain.

but then i saw shit happen today.
shit happened.
but no one cared.

and i couldnt complain.
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all it ever takes for bad things to happen as we have all seen in history is for enough good men to do nothing.


perfect examples are characters like Hitler, Stalin, Osama Bin Laden.

there are people who have seen these people gathering power, amassing strength, stockpiling weapons, creating chaos, inciting fear, sharpening resolves, introducing inhumane treatments to people.

yet those people sat by and did nothing.
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i look at sakae T2, havoc.
absolute havoc.
new part timers who think so full of themselves.
who dont give a shit.
who dont do things the right way.
who give attitude.

i also see full timers and old part timers dont do things.
dont follow the rules and regulations set by office or by the management
dont know how to do things
dont bother.

and then i see managers not doing anything about that.
i see supervisor A not teaching them the right thing.
i see supervisor B struggling but cant do much.
yet all 3 tell me that they are in trouble.

so i have to ask myself.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING HERE?

i mean you sure are in shit.
and some real deep one too.

but then again. you are the managment.
YOU. NOT ME.
FUCKING DO SOMETHING.

for one?
how about stand united and say you guys want to change the service standard?
where did the "as long as i draw pay from this company i will still do my job well" attitude go?

and then WHAT THE FUCK IS EVERYONE WORKING FOR???
where did the"THERES NO 'I' IN A TEAM"go to?

the whole svc crew be it management, full timer or part timer.

the whole svc crew is like a hand.
and each of us is a finger.
without others we all are useless.
alone a finger can't grasp, or control, or form a fist.
we are nothing on our own, and everything together.


and what i have seen so far.
what i have seen makes my blood boil.
makes me rage like a caged beast.
makes me wanna chuck my handphone on a wall and watch it crumble into pieces.
makes me wanna grab those fuckers who showed attitude and think so great of themselves,
and smash their faces into a wall
makes me wanna tear their flesh to shreds and feast upon it.
makes me wanna tear off all restrains and physically harm them.
makes me wanna watch them suffer the pain and anguish that they have never seen humanely possibly to be inflicted onto them.

bet with you now that some of them will think that i dont have to balls to face them down in a throw-down.


honestly. if i have been the past me, i'd probably be in a police station now.


i still have rules that i play by. dont make me abandon them and play dirty.