Eddie's Journal, 11th May 2009, 1.11 pm

final scene from Matrix Revolutions:

Agennt Smith:
"why Mr Anderson? why, why why, why do you do it? why, why get up? why keep fighting? do you believe that you are fighting for something? for more than your survival? Can you tell me what it is? Do you even know? Is it freedom or truth? perhaps peace? could it be for love? Illusions Mr Anderson, Vagaries of perception. Temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify its existence that is without meaning or purpose! And all of them as artificial as the Matrix itself... Although only a human mind could invent something as insipid as "love". You must be able to see it Mr Anderson, you must know it by now. You cant win, it's pointless to keep fighting. Why Mr Anderson, why, why do you persist?"




Neo: "because i choose to"




after 2 days of drinking. and suffering from morning headaches and feeling sickish. time to get my feet back on the ground.


things haven been well for the weekend. no point going into details. have to keep things moving.


realized that bad things can happen. and if we choose to look on the brighter side of things and jus maintain a more buoyant attitude things the bleak future will somehow look nicer and brighter.

unfortunately i just cant look things of the bright side too often. i dont hope very often. cos hope is the first step to despair. which i know cos i have often hope alot in the past just to be let down terribly.

i leave the majority of hoping to more optimistic people.


im too dark and twisted for hope anyway. things ive seen things ive been through all makes me want to stop hoping every single day.


yet every single day of human life has hope in it.

by choosing to have a happy mood really helps to move our day along.

because lots of thing in our life cant be changed by us or by our actions. but our mood directly affects our actions and emotions.

we have to choose. we have choices.


choice. we want it. we hate it. we demand for it.

but at the end of the day we somehow will make choices we regret. choices that are stupid. choices that defines who we are.

and its all up to us to make these choices.